“We’re all damaged in our own way. Nobody’s perfect. I think we’re all somewhat screwy. Every single one of us.”
When I was nine years old, my parents told me that we were going to move to Arizona. I was born in Connecticut and had not seen much out of the town I was born in. My parents flew to Arizona to take a look around, and see if it was a place they wanted to live in. My grandmother stayed at our house with my baby brother and I. I was very shaken and scared. I didn’t want to leave everything I had ever known.
Before my parents left, they purchased a movie for us to watch while they were gone. It was a VHS tape of Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl. My grandmother ranted and raved about what an incredible movie it was, and how, “you are going to love Johnny Depp, Morgan!”
“Who the hell is Johnny Depp?” I remember thinking. I looked at the bearded dude on the cover of the tape and thought…“him?”
We watched the movie on the pull-out couch in the living room, just my grandmother and I. I absolutely fell in love with all the actors, all the characters, pirates, and the 18th century, in general. But I can say Johnny Depp truly changed my life.
I started watching this movie every single day. There was a point where I could literally recite every line in the movie. Sometimes, if I was having trouble sleeping, I would lay in bed and start reciting the movie in my head until I passed out.
My parents introduced me to Edward Scissorhands, next. I was so shocked when I realized that was the same guy! I was blown away by his talent, and needed more.
By the time we moved to Arizona, a few months later, Johnny Depp was all I could think about. I had decided that I wanted to be an actor so that I could be like him (and Keira Knightley, of course – she was my role model too).
Watching POTC and every Johnny Depp movie my parents would let me see at the time, is what got me through the scariness of moving to a new state, and being the “new kid.” Learning about Johnny Depp, and his life, and his personality is what helped me to realize that I didn’t have to be like everyone else. Johnny Depp taught me that one of the most important things we can do in our lives, is to be ourselves. He taught me that we should strive to be different. We should be weird on purpose. We should only do the things we want to do, and tell everyone else to fuck off.
I was the kid who didn’t care what others thought in school. I would wear over-sized flannels and workboots to school – IN MIDDLE SCHOOL MIND YOU. I had only a few close friends. I was not popular. I was not the one that the boys liked. And it didn’t matter to me. I wore the clothes I liked, I did the things I liked, and I talked to people who were really important to me – not the ones who would make me seem cooler. Of course I learned a lot of this from my mom, too. But Johnny Depp was a big part of my development.
“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”
When I was 11 years old, I began acting in community theater. I wanted to act so that I could get famous and help others. I wanted to be able to speak with people about living a genuine life, full of fun, and laughter. I wanted to promote self-love and strength. I wanted to promote doing the things you love in life.
I thought that if I became famous I would be able to accomplish all this. So I acted in community theater plays, and a few short films from age 11-21. I even won an award for best actress, for my portrayal of the Evil Queen in an adaptation of Snow White.
Now, I have learned that I can do this without being famous. I have found my path, blogging and writing. This is how I will help others in my own, unique way.
However, my theater years were some of the best years of my life. I got to meet and spend time with some incredible people during those years. I learned so much about myself and the world around me. I learned what it meant to truly love people outside of my family. I learned how to brave the world, being completely vulnerable, up on stage. I learned how to make people cry, laugh, and be uncomfortable. I learned how to make people feel.
Honestly, if it weren’t for Johnny Depp, I would have never done any of those things. I would have never learned about my undying need to help others, I would have never learned how to jump out of my comfort zone, and I would have never become the person I am today. I discovered my values in the years that I spent obsessed with Johnny Depp, and for that I am forever thankful. My entire life would be completely different without his influence.
All this being said, I want to remind you that Johnny Depp is a human. We have no way of ever knowing what truly happened behind closed doors, between him and Amber Heard. We have no way of knowing what she said, what he said, what she did, what he did. We have no way of knowing the feelings they once had for each other, and the feelings they have for each other now.
We do not have the right to judge Johnny Depp in the way the media is. You can’t tell me that you didn’t look up to Johnny at one point in your life. Everyone loved him 10 years ago. Or have you forgotten?
I’m not saying that you have to love him now, either. I am saying that I see no point in all of America hating him right now. There is no reason to spread so much hate, when we have so many other things facing us, as a country. Personally, I don’t believe the accusations he has been slammed with – and you can dislike me if you want for saying so – but, we will never know what happened, why can’t we just leave it at that?
As a life coach, and spiritual teacher, I think it is important that if news articles about Johnny have upset you lately, perhaps you take a look within to find out why. Be mindful. Remember that everyone is walking their own path. What’s done is done. Perhaps he made some mistakes. I have made some huge mistakes too. There are things that I have done that my readers and followers will never know about. But those are the things that make me human. Those are the things that ground me. Those are the things that have taught me lessons that I am now able to share with you, in the name of light and love.
And unfortunately for him, and many other Hollywood people, because their lives are not private, any mistake they make is blown out of proportion. I’m lucky that mine stay as small mistakes, and so are you. Thank goodness we don’t have the added pressure of the public eye on us when we screw up, eh?
I think Johnny deserves a break. He deserves a minute to heal from whatever bullshit he has been dealing with, no matter what that bullshit is – no matter if he is the one who caused it or not. We are all learning, on this planet. And that’s all that counts.
Johnny Depp played a huge role in my childhood and teen years. And for that, I will always love him.
He’s still someone I think about almost daily. My boyfriend and I were watching old 21 Jump Street episodes earlier this month. We even got to wave to Johnny across the street in Phoenix, in 2013, when he played with Alice Cooper for his annual Christmas show. They played a Doors song, which sent my heart a-flutter, as you can imagine. I will never forget that magical night.
Please think about what others are going through before you pass judgement. Collectively, as humans, we need to do this, always.
With love and light,